Words, Practice & Process
An ongoing record of the work — philosophy, practice, conversations, and the craft behind C4 Suspension.
Full Transparency
Communication is my kink. Clarity turns me on. Vulnerability feeds me. I’m not interested in unicorn hunters. I’m not interested
The Architecture of Safety
We tend to believe that safety is a concept, a checklist if you will. Are the doors locked? Do I have enough
The Watchlist I Don’t Recommend and Thats the point
I was talking with a friend recently someone open, but unfamiliar with many of the films that quietly shaped my entry into
Same World. Different Consciousness.
When we talk about “levels of consciousness,” we’re really just talking about the different ways we learn to see the world.
"levels of consciousness"
"levels of consciousness" are conceptualized through several distinct but overlapping frameworks: as energetic fields of power (Hawkins), as a spectrum
Stewarding the Darkness
This morning a friend and I had one of those rare conversations that cuts past small talk and goes straight into the
Wheel of Individuation
People love to appropriate language without ever doing the work demanded: the confrontation with shadow, the descent into the unconscious, the integration
Self-Esteem as the Precondition for Surrender
It is a common error to conflate the act of surrender with the pathology of self-abnegation. In the popular imagination, the desire
The archive holds everything.
A year of image-making, writing, ritual, and practice — organized by month. Enter the Living Year archive and move through the work chapter by chapter.