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Only the uninitiated call it fire manipulation.

They want the magic, the transformation, the illumination—but they are unwilling to burn. Unwilling to bleed for what they were meant to become, unwilling to suffer for what they are destined to embody.

The flame does not bend for desire alone. It does not dance for those unwilling to step fully into its heat. Initiation is a crucible. To call yourself alchemist of the spirit without offering your own blood, sweat, and shadow is to mistake performance for power.

True power comes through the fire. Through the surrender. Through the willing bleed. Only those who endure the burn, who face themselves in the blaze, can claim the magic as their own.

I call forth the divine you. From beyond time and memory, I summon the power that resides within you to transmute into the world.

I call forth your voice—to speak into existence what has been whispered in your heart. I reach for your purpose, your mission, your direction, and draw it down into embodiment.

You walk through fire and are not consumed. You move through the crucible, unshaken, untouched in body, mind, and spirit. The flame does not burn you; it reveals you. It carves clarity from shadow and forges your sovereignty from trial.

This is the alchemy of becoming: the whispered potential made real, the sacred flame that tests and purifies, and the power that rises fully awakened, anchored, and unassailable.

Things That Make Me Feel Unsafe

I do not walk into this blind. These are things that break trust, the fractures that turn ecstasy into risk.

• Bottoms dulled by drink, smoke, or any fog that steals presence.
• Crowds that blur kink with party, where intoxication drowns awareness.
• Those who hide their body’s truths—medical conditions unspoken until harm reveals them.
• Those who lie about intentions, masking shadow behind a smile.
• Spaces too crowded, too mundane, where kink is spectacle instead of sacred.
• Players who haven’t honored their own commitments at home before seeking mine.
• Liars. Mess-makers. Those who turn play into theater of ego.
• Bottoms who come to compete, not surrender.
• Those who wield identity as weapon, twisting community into shield for harm.
• Those strange, reckless white folx who move without study, without respect.
• Uninformed daredevils who crave danger but reject discipline.
• Bottoms carrying raw, unintegrated trauma that explodes instead of releases.
• Bottoms whose violence is not ritual, but uncontrolled.

My rope does not belong to any of this.

I ache for rope—its cruelty against my skin, a language that dissolves thought into need.

A slow catechism across the chest, a tightening oath at the waist, a winding down the thighs—each pull an order obeyed, a benediction written into flesh. I crave the fiber, the drag that claims me, that makes my body sing with the songs of pressure and tension.

Bindings do more than hold—they stitch my hunger, my pulse, the restless hollow within me into one obedient shape. In the tension, I unravel and reassemble. Undone, I am whole: a goddess revealed by worship and restraint, unmade and remade strand by strand.

The rope is not punishment. It is invocation. It is the hinge. The hunger. The small sacrament that demands I beg and, in that begging, remember my power.

To those who enter this space, know: this is ritual. This is transformation. This is communion with shadow and desire, a sacred alchemy of body, mind, and spirit.

I exist in the paralysis between command and obeying — not sleep, not pain, but the mind made immobile. Nerves flare like dry tinder, every signal raw and urgent: Move. Learn. Eat.

And still — I am in the gap. Stuck. Frozen. Thoughts spin like knives debating motion that never comes. My body becomes a mutineer, refusing the magicks summons, ignoring the electric orders flooding down the spine.

I am trapped inside a shrine of thought, pacing altars of possibility — should I move? why study? what can I take in? — while the temple remains sealed.

Here I wait, not by choice but by inheritance, a captive to my own circuitry: admonished, urged, and finally abandoned by the very impulses that ought to free me. Paralyzed.

Forget want. This is need, a primal vibration thrumming beneath the skin, beyond thought, beyond reason. It does not bargain, it does not hesitate.

It is a hunger singular, searing, drawn toward the friction of flesh, the collision of muscle and heat that resists and meets me in equal measure. I ache to be filled, to surrender into the instant where craving is absolute, where the hollow within me is consumed, claimed, and rendered whole.

Desire here is not gentle. It is a ritual, a confrontation, a sacred unraveling — and I step into it fully, with nothing left to shield, nothing left to hide.

I have fallen into the pit of my own desires. Beneath a low, suffocating sky, shadows has fled. Days crawl past like wounded beasts, nights gape with ravenous maelstrom . I ask nothing of the world but permission to inhale my glory, let it consume me like grey smoke devouring the forest .

Yet, amidst the ash, a flame endure — my old friends. They reach without calculation, recognize me in bliss, hold me when all else has turned to naught. Let them be seen; their gestures preserve as remembrance of the human in me.

The others — masked in kindness, parasites gnawing at my misfortune, voices slick with empathy only to sharpen judgment — I offer nothing but this: let them burn, let them rot, let them hollow in their own designs.

I have no mask left. No smile. No concession to their wretched curiosity. leave me to my darkness, and let me have the one gift I crave: war.

They bound my hands.
They veiled my face.
They labeled me, trying to define the currents I carry.

I did not deny it.
How could I?
The fire in my veins pulses with a force that will not be muted, a current that cannot be restrained.

Yes, I shaped the night.
Yes, I bent energy to my will.
Yes, my partner’s presence became a conduit, a channel through which the currents surged and intertwined.

Accusations were hurled. Energy misread, intentions judged. I do not forgive the misunderstanding—it carries its own weight, its own resonance.

Let them call it transgression. Let them tremble at their own contained flows. Their fire, their chains, their attempts at purification—none of it touches me.

I am not what they seek to cleanse.
I am the storm in the current.
I am the relentless pulse, the force that will not dissipate.
I am the shadow that courses through the unseen, unyielding, eternal.

This is my confession—not of guilt, but of power.
Not of submission, but of resonance.
Not of denial, but of energy fully, fiercely alive.